“I don’t know what’s worth fighting for, or why I have to scream. I don’t know why I instigate, and say what I don’t mean. I don’t know how I got this way, I know it’s not alright. So I’m breaking the habit tonight.”
Those lyrics took me back to my junior year of high school, back when Linkin’ Park was still somewhat relevant. In 2004, I was 17-years-old and I’d sing this song everyday, acting like I knew exactly what the lyrics meant. I sang it loud and proud…
Then, this morning, “Breaking the Habit” came on my XM Radio as I was driving to work. I hadn’t heard the song in years, and I was really happy to hear it again. I started singing along to the track, just like I did 10 years ago… but then I got to the chorus, and it’s crazy how much darker the song seems: 1, after years of not listening to it, and 2, just really listening to what he’s really saying.
In a song that I used to rock out to with my friends, I’ve realized 10 years later that the song is about a tough, inner-struggle that a person has with themselves. And with that struggle, they know they have to break out of it… but they are not sure how.
It really got me thinking: how many songs out there are songs that I would jam to back in high school, not knowing how dark and twisted the subject matter was?
I was going to spend the rest of my day listening to Linkin’ Park’s entire Meteora album… but I think that’d be a little too depressing…
…so I listened to “Gettin’ Jiggy With It”… which has no hidden meaning, and kind of makes zero sense.
MORE THAN 300 WORDS: I must note though, the final chorus of the song ends a little more optimistically. I’d be an idiot to not end the blog with the final chorus lyrics of this song:
“I don’t know what’s worth fighting for, or why I have to scream. But now I have some clarity, to show you what I mean. I don’t know how I got this way, I’ll never be alright. So I’m breaking the habit, I’m breaking the habit, I’m breaking the habit tonight.”
Today’s 300 words are dedicated to you Linkin Park.